To do:
-Clean out my inbox and update the FE kink meme index/reply to all of those RP notifs/generally not have 40 undealt with messages in there.
-Write that Hakuba+Issei thing for Lylith that I said I'd do.
-Write that Lancer/Issei thing I promised Duck aaaaages ago.
-Make a decision about writing memes. I've done a holiday post for the past two years, and I feel bad about not doing it again this year, particularly when I've made a couple requests (or, well, one that I can think of) this year. And there's that 5 + 1 meme going around on DDD, which I haven't made any requests to because I know I'll guilt myself into doing it. I know people like my writing, and I have the time; but writing meme requests often get me frustrated. I do not need to be frustrated right now - I burst into tears again in class yesterday, and all signs indicate that my mood hasn't improved much in the last... couple weeks. Not since I last posted about it, certainly.
-Figure out what the heck to do about this mood. When writing seems like work, and making icons seems like work, and playing video games seems like work, and roleplaying seems kind of like work sometimes, what exactly do I do to get myself to relax and feel better?
-...Maybe not do #1-3 until the mood is taken care of. RL > writing and RP, right? It's okay for me to not risk sending myself into a panic. I can write things in... I don't know, February, and no one will mind that I'm not writing them now. And nobody really looks at the index I maintain anyway.

I wish I knew why people say I'm smart, or a good writer/roleplayer/singer/anything. I don't feel that way; all I see are my mistakes and how painful it is for me to come up with even my mediocre results. But I still have the high standards for myself of people who are actually smart or good at writing or roleplaying. And when I fail to meet those standards...

I wish they distilled hugs and sold them in a can, and whenever you needed one you could just crack open the seal. I could use one of those right now.

I don't really think I have the right to complain about this.

dramadramaduck had its love meme the other day, and I thought it was pretty amazing that I had good things to say about everyone who commented, and also everyone who didn't comment I can think of. Love this RP so much~

So I've been thinking that I really want to have a second character at DDD. I don't plan on becoming less active with Issei, certainly, but recent events have brought to my attention that a) I really enjoy doing something at all times, usually participating in most every cool virus and b) sometimes Issei is busy or otherwise not a good choice for a virus at the moment. Plus, I'd get excuses to talk to the characters that Issei doesn't talk to more.

( Thus, ideas who I could app, in no particular order. )

So that's about twenty different characters I could possibly play. What do you think, friends list? Who am I/would I be good at, and if you're a DDD member, who would you like to see? Feel free to point out some other character that I obviously could play but somehow forgot about.

Note to self: I am too good for this sinful earth sensitive for the internet at times. Avoid thinking about the DDD drama unfolding until it blows over, because right now it's kind of making me feel sick.

Arcane Power came in the mail today. I don't know how many people know about my fey pact!warlock, but Tira's going to end up epically awesome. ("Do you want to know exactly where the fey touched me~?")

My cousin is glorious and I adore visiting her. On an unrelated note, it's time for an update to "things there is porn of"!

Things that there is porn of on the internet (that I didn't make myself):
Caster/Issei
Rin/Issei
Taiga/Issei
Himuro/Issei
Archer/Issei
Iskander/Issei (I am not making this up.)
Rider/Issei

Things that there is not porn of on the internet (that I didn't make myself):
Shirou/Issei

I'm happy for Issei getting laid, but geeze.

Things that sucked about today:
-The cough from yesterday graduated into a cold. I can only hope I caught the 'blech' from Elf, so she doesn't have it any more.
-Had a migraine, threw up.
-Aaron broke a pickle jar. Naturally, I'm the one who cleaned it up.
-Haven't had dinner because there's still glass in the kitchen.

Things that did not suck about today:
-Did not cut myself on any glass.
-Beat Battle Moon Wars!
( More about that. )

So OGT week is over, and the only one that was even remotely hard was science. So... yay.

I'm a legitimate beta now. With something that I betaed on the internet, and everything!

To-do list:
-I should figure out how to download and play Act 4 of Battle Moon Wars without getting rid of my old save... Done~
-By the end of spring break (March 30-April 3) I want to have written summaries for all of my fics, with the intention of including summaries for them hereon out. Current status: 0/264 50/264 101/264 123/264. Oh boy. 139/264, more than halfway done, and having just reached the first F/SN fic. Done!
-Work on untitled trade-fic for Elf, current status ~500 words. Half the length of Offerings already. Done and up, currently in the 'wait for someone to reply so I don't panic over whether it sucks' stage. Oh, wow, it didn't suck.
-Work on untitled 'ancient Japan is really homoerotic' fic.
-Finish chapter 2 of Broken Phantasm.
-Try to kick a Naesala muse into gear, because I want to be able to write him again.
-Finish the male!Archer/male!Rin/male!Issei part of that epic genderswap!PWP I wanted to write, which still leaves twelve other parts. That part clocked in at 1,945 words, and I'm going to stop that before Rin has his wicked way with Issei some more. Twelve parts to go!
-Come to think of it, I should put Abalone on FF.net and decide whether it's going to be all character:+issei, or only character:+issei, character:+shirou and character:+issei, character:+archer. Or decide not to put that story on there at all.

So apparently I suck at Battle Moon Wars.

You'd think that, having played a lot of turn-based strategy games in my time, I would not fail so miserably at this one, but no.

...I'm going to keep persevering. Maybe it'll get easier... and it'd be nice if my computer would stop overheating and shutting down.

Still, thank goodness for immobile bosses. Especially ones that can't attack the person next to them.

(On the very early chapter with the wolf boss, for the curious.)

I am not at all complaining about having no school three days in a row. Heck yes, snow is awesome.

I would also not be complaining about this Persona 4/Fate/stay night crossover that's rooted itself into my brain, except for the small fact that I haven't even played Persona 4.

Main Character: Shirou (Persona: Arturia + everybody ever, freaking wild cards)
Party Member #1: Rin (Persona: Archer)
Party Member #2: Sakura (Persona: Medusa)
Party Member #3: Ilya (Persona: Hercules)
Party Member #4: Issei (Persona: ?)
Party Member #5/First Mission Control: ...Waver? (Persona: Iskander)
Party Member #6: ?
Second Mission Control: ...Shinji? (Persona: ?)
First Victim: ...Kariya?
Second Victim: Ayako
Rescue This Victim Or You're A Horrible Person: Taiga
Woops, Not The Big Bad: ...Ryunosuke? (Persona: Bluebeard)
Big Bad: Kotomine (Persona: Gilgamesh)
Social Links: I don't even want to think about this.

Name a character (or characters) and I'll tell you all the pairings with them that I like (or have considered for any length of time), and what I think of all of them.

You know what I like~

Is this a rare mention of real life? Shock! :O

-Braces still hurt like hell.
-I have an 89 in Creative Technology. Crap. I know my parents are going to chew me out for this.
-On the plus side, I think I pwned that English exam.