DDD FOURTH WALL POST~ This was really awesome last time we had it, guys. I've only made a thread with DDD!Issei so far because of my funk, but I promise I'll reply to you promptly.

I'm glad my brother's Bar Mitzvah is over, because frick if it wasn't aggravating as anything. ...I did get complimented on my singing, though. Possibly as much as he got complimented, which is sad.

I saw a therapist on Thursday. Her office is incredibly creepy, but she herself seems... nice. I can't say whether anything has really improved or not. ...Mn, but having cousins over is a good change. Too bad that's temporary.

To do:
-Clean out my inbox and update the FE kink meme index/reply to all of those RP notifs/generally not have 40 undealt with messages in there.
-Write that Hakuba+Issei thing for Lylith that I said I'd do.
-Write that Lancer/Issei thing I promised Duck aaaaages ago.
-Make a decision about writing memes. I've done a holiday post for the past two years, and I feel bad about not doing it again this year, particularly when I've made a couple requests (or, well, one that I can think of) this year. And there's that 5 + 1 meme going around on DDD, which I haven't made any requests to because I know I'll guilt myself into doing it. I know people like my writing, and I have the time; but writing meme requests often get me frustrated. I do not need to be frustrated right now - I burst into tears again in class yesterday, and all signs indicate that my mood hasn't improved much in the last... couple weeks. Not since I last posted about it, certainly.
-Figure out what the heck to do about this mood. When writing seems like work, and making icons seems like work, and playing video games seems like work, and roleplaying seems kind of like work sometimes, what exactly do I do to get myself to relax and feel better?
-...Maybe not do #1-3 until the mood is taken care of. RL > writing and RP, right? It's okay for me to not risk sending myself into a panic. I can write things in... I don't know, February, and no one will mind that I'm not writing them now. And nobody really looks at the index I maintain anyway.

I wish I knew why people say I'm smart, or a good writer/roleplayer/singer/anything. I don't feel that way; all I see are my mistakes and how painful it is for me to come up with even my mediocre results. But I still have the high standards for myself of people who are actually smart or good at writing or roleplaying. And when I fail to meet those standards...

I wish they distilled hugs and sold them in a can, and whenever you needed one you could just crack open the seal. I could use one of those right now.

I don't really think I have the right to complain about this.

I finished my springkink fic two days before it's due! Phew, I was worried for a while there. Now I just need to start working on those alphabet prompt fics. I do mean start. Haven't written a word of any of them. Sorry, this fic had a deadline.

Also I need to finish my current FE10 Playthrough, currently at the beginning of 4-E-3. Mia is amazing and maxed every stat, every stat. And Mist is actually really good, it's the first time I've gotten her to 20/20 and brought her along. Right now the only characters I have who aren't at max level are Kurthnaga and Ena. Kurthnaga's actually fairly good once he's leveled more, Ena... way less so. (This is what, my fourth playthrough and it's the first time I've used them. Huh.) Playing it also gave me a drabblebunny for FE, the first one in a while - Soren counterattacked with a Heal staff and gained a rank up in staves. How does hitting someone with a stick (for 0 damage) let you use holier sticks with more healing magic?

Seven eighths finished with my next icon post - I had this huge Battle Moon Wars set that took forever to complete, and then I made a bunch of Avenger icons like I said I would. Now I'm not sure what to icon to bring the post up from 175 to an even 200.

Oh, and I had straight A's this quarter. That was nice.

That Fate ranking thing I stole from Feral and Sanae. Seems pretty accurate to me, although maybe Shirou should be a little higher.

( First place doesn't suprise anyone. )

Taking the PSAT again tomorrow, this time in the year where it actually matters a little. Wish me luck? I can't remember what I thought of it last year.

I left my laptop computer in the last hotel we stayed in. We just bought it, I just paid $100 and my parents just paid $200 for it, and now it's gone and I'll probably never see it again, and oh god, my schoolwork was on there! My summer projects! And I need my computer, I can't deal with it being gone!

EDIT: Crisis averted. Getting shipped through FedEx, will be home Wednesday.

It's that time of year again, where I sit back and say 'wow, I'm really sixteen'!

I've probably already told this story, but during Hurricane Isabel, only one power line on our street was knocked down. It gave power to only two houses. One of them was ours. So, we just ran extension cords to our neighbor's house for the necessities and continued on our merry way until the power was back~

EDIT: And this is my first official act with my new, completely working computer~

Computers fail, everyone dies.

In non-meme-speak: my years-old laptop is on its last breaths (having Firefox open should not take 100% CPU even when I'm not doing anything!), and I'm going to need to convince dad to buy me a new one. Wish me luck.

Fun game is fun. And yes, I got 100% completion in about... 900 seconds?

Posting from a family reunion in Albequerque. Hmm, do you think when I get back that commission I ordered will be at my doorstep? That would be great.

And of course, the most productive thing I've done this trip is write the first chapter of a longer smutfic, but hey! It's 2000 words, that's good for me! And I'm a dork for fail!sex, and I need to work on my smut-writing skills, so.